Happy July 4th! I hope that everyone has some sort of fireworks in their life. It’s important to keep the fire, the spark, and to have that explosive feeling of love, joy, or excitement from time to time. Today we completed our wedding website….at 11pm. It was an entire day’s work. There was so much to do, to tweak, update, etc. But, it’s finished! We are starting on addressing our envelopes tomorrow, and hopefully that won’t be as much of a task as I thought.
Tomorrow is my appointment at the dress shop to find a dress…my second wedding dress. I still can’t believe that I’m THAT customer. I’m nervous about shopping again. What if I can’t find anything? What if I just end up buying what looks okay just because I can’t stand shopping for one? I’m really, really nervous. For kicks, here’s an analogy – Shopping for another wedding dress is like entering the dating world again. You don’t know if you’ll find “the one,” or if you’ll wish that you would have kept what you had. Is the grass really greener?
Zach and I spent most of the day working on wedding stuff and messing around the house. Laundry, light cleaning, homework. I layed out for an hour because I just wanted to feel the sun on my aching heart. It helped, I must say. My Grandma called, which was a surprise. She usually doesn’t call because “long distance costs, you know.” She asked what our plans were for the rest of the day, so I told her: finish the wedding website, have a few beers, walk the dog, eat our barbecue, and watch a movie. She said “You guys are just, well, just like an old content couple.” Although she may have meant that sweetly, and although I agreed with a laugh, it sent a pang inside me. I don’t want to be an old couple! I’m 28 freakin years old! It made me wish that we would have gone downtown to Centennial Park and watched the fireworks with the 28,000 people that decided to be youthful and adventurous.
